Guess what ? I feel like having a private blog . LOL . Ya I know you want to slap me .

There are many unsaids .
I dont feel like sharing what's happening with anyone else .
It's because I can cope and I dont need any pity or sympathy or unnecessary comments :)

Lalala , daddy is back . Fetched him with mummy and Jonas , we took bus 858 . He keep emo-ing in the bus ! :)








We reached Terminal 3 , but realised daddy's flight arrival is at Terminal 2 so we took skytrain ! I love airports . The photos are blurrish but who cares man :)






Daddy and mummy are so lovey dovey that they hug and kiss each other once they met :)
So sweet !
We went to eat YaKun Roti next , I love the toast dips ! You dipped slices of plain toast into delicious chocolate syrup :) Nice nice I like . It comes with ice-blended coffee which I think taste fabulous ! After that we took taxi home ! I sat in front so they can continue lovey dovey , heh heh . Then Im so bored so I started to zilian since so long long ago :D















(most of my beautiful self-portrait not uploaded wahaha !)
And anywaywe went home and unpacked everything from my daddy's bag ... Clothes , dirty clothes , unworn(?) clothes , and ..................
And ...................





CHOCOLATES !!! Daddy siao . See ? I cant take a clear picture of it because my phone camera dont know where to concentrate ! HAHA . After this period of time I will quit chocolates . (imagine it as the same tone as quit smoking ! :D:D)




And cute keychains ^^ I took the cow one ! The other one not cute .



After that , welcome dinner for my papa at Vista Kitchen !






Like that lor ^^ Heh heh . Really very happy my papa back . Mummy will not so easy sad and angry . And I can go out at night without my mummy crying ! :D:D:D

Im disappearing tonight ... Wahaha . Dont tell you where I go :)
Maybe I will be gone for very long . Maybe just a few weeks . Miss me please !
Hahahaha ...

Dont tell you I go how long ! I'll blog when Im back ! Wahaha . Please contact me at my old phone number if you need to contact me :D

Is there Pokemon on PSP ? I hope they have leh ): Im bored , I want new games ...



Anyway there's a good news for me but Im not really sure about it yet ... It's sort of about my future and compared to a similar topic post about that certain topic can say I super contradicting one . Aiya who cares la ! :D

Im not telling today . Lalala . I like being mysterious .

I know Im acting cute but I cant help getting high ! No , I am alone . No , I dont have depression . No , no one was entertaining me . Can happy by myself for no reasons ma har !

HAHAHA .

I need to earn money . Really like earn ALOT for me to stabilise my life for abit . I hate life without money and happiness and friends and boyfriend ):
I need them all ! :D

Good night .

"If a chair accidentally falls over, as you are uprighting it, hold it balanced in place on only one of its legs and make a wish."

LOL . How often do I get clumsy and trip a chair over ? I guess I have to purposely accidentally make a chair fall down :) I have a big big wish to make !

During the past few days everything sounds so true in my horoscope . But after I said something or did something then I found out that Im not supposed to do it . My horoscope says . So fucking damn true . Today's horoscope sounds good and nice and happy . I doubt anything will happen .

Oh well , back to mapling , level 30 le ! :D There's a girl wearing a sad Halloween mask . The place Im training at tends to have the usual tradition of smling wherever someone passed ! So I smiled and said Dont sad . Then she took off her sad mask and put on her smiling mask . She up my fame and poof ! gone . I cant even whisper to her and I had to guard my own map . Something small like that makes me happy all day :)
I LOVE MAPLESTORY ! (Jianing dont sad kkieszxs ?)

Anyway my House Bunny still havent watch leh :( I very sad ! Very very sad . I want to dieeeee .

Know what ? I started writing a diary again ! Yay ! Like a paper and a pen ! I mean , a book . Inside it says , "Happy as a pig in shit" . Arh , I so love this quote . So , Im as happy as a pig in shit ! Im contradicting . Outside it says "Many happy returns" ^^

Im going to self-study soon with my sister as a tutor . I want to prove my intelligence by passing next year's private O levels :)
If I dont passed , I wont be surprised . Im not a genius and missed 2.5 years of secondary school .
And Im using my own money . Yeah rich $.$ , my foot !

Chalets chalets all come come . Holidays faster come also ! I know I one whole year holiday (HAHAHA YAYYYYYY LOSER) but it's because when those friends of mine is on holidays I can go out more often with them :)


Do you know when sometimes you said something , but that's not really what you mean ? But at that moment those words just splurt out of your mouth ? And when people listen they tend to think in that bad way ? But that's not what you mean and you dont want people to think it that way ?

Now , I begin to realise that more than half of the things I've said in my life are either exaggerated / in a fist of anger/sadness/unsatisfied way . And nothing bad that I've said , I mean it .

I dont hate anyone . I dont dont like anyone . But sometimes I hate them and I want to tear their faces apart .

Ah , evil Jiamin .

I want to fetch my jiejie from school later , only reason being Im too bored staying in my house and Woodlands :)

My mum trimmed my fringe and it's really so similar to bangs already . Argh , but clever me clipped it to the side :)

I go eat lunch already , bye bye peeper !

"Better find an outlet for all that energy. Otherwise, you just might find yourself in the midst of an argument with an innocent bystander who's had an equally nutty day."

I just vented my energy on my mum who is fretting over many things . I need somewhere to spend my energy on . But no one is available ? Please my girls , see this , ASK ME OUT .

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Btw , ytd ! Met my primary school friends and went to East Coast Park . Had fun and was lucky that my auntie came to visit (: Poor Joelle and Pohshen !
Ride bikes , ate Macd , walked to a dont know where bus-stop and bused to TSY's condo . I love condos ! I still rmbed Jianing one . I LOVE CONDOS ! :D:D:D

Talked and crapped and laughed like mad . Went home at 11+ (:

Sucha long time to have an outing ! Im looking forward to go out with my KZB soon , or any of them . Woohoo !


15 is an inappropriate age for working , and that sucks big time . It's just half more year that I turn 16 . Not fair .

Working at Northpoint again from 21st-30th October for Fragrance (Xiang Wei) again ! Yay ! Another hundreds of money into my pocket again and that makes me jumping with joy .

Blogging is not a way of saying everything out , offensive or not , desperate or not .
I think it's not fair .
That's why people chose to only allow certain people into their blog , although sometimes I do -.- over those blogs because I cant enter !

Hahaha . But blogging is meaningless if no one reads and unfortunate for us if someone detests what I write and decides to slap me with %^&$@^& .

What's the point , anyway ? I need Kbox . And the House Bunny . And shopping . I need laughters and far far places . I want to go to Genting .

I miss Jianing , Alvin & Edwin .
I dont feel close to anyone anymore .
Im a human , I need to get a life .

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YKH , I miss you so fucking ridiculously absolutely undescribingly much .
There's an understanding me and an unreasonable me behind this ugly face .
It's time to get to understand and get use to the situation . Time to change , again . (As if I've changed since the last thing I've said to change) But nevertheless , I try .



You must promise me .
I love you !











Mapling time . 2nd job le soon ! Wooooooooooooooooooooo !

Yeehaw ^^

One week later and my father will be back ! Damn happy . I never realise that days without my father can be ..... you know . Im so glad he'll be back soon !

And the wedding ! It isnt as 'big' as my eldest cousin's one . But still , I love weddings ! Wedding dinners especially ^^ My mother love weddings too because there are many people gathering there . I only stayed there for two days . I really idolise this cousin because she knows how to doll up herself and has alot of character . So the first day , we visited my second auntie's house , it's her second daughter whose marrying off . There's communication of relatives , talking and eating :D That night , my cousins and I stayed up late at my third auntie house for movie !


After a good night's sleep , it's the wedding day ! The people at my auntie house were busy dolling up themselves blah blah blah . And then we went to my second auntie house for the tea ceremony (:

My maternal side relatives really enjoy taking photos !


This is my third auntie's family ! Most of the time I went to Johor Bahru I will be visiting them . It's only half an hour drive to there (: Nearer then from Woodlands to Pasir Ris leh !

I think my mother is cute and her genes is passed on to me .



Busy preparing !

The bride is ready to marry off !



Lol , this is really fun ! When the 新郎and his friends come , they cannot go into the room first !! Because it's a traditional process (: So my real godsister make a sandwich with mango , chilli sauce and many things kiap inside for them to eat ! And each of them has to do 8 pumpings ! Wahaha so funny . And of course got ang pao !


Yi bai tian di ...


老的。。。


年轻的！:D


Then we carry on to the groom's side .. And the bride is going to throw the flower bouquet to the ladies behind to see who caught it ! (Of course Im not there , Im too young (: )

The bride is actually smiling but the camera is facing the direction the sun is shining in so ):

She threw it ...

And the bridesmaid's friend caught it (:
The bridesmaid's friend is actually also the bride's friend ! (aka sisters)
And actually she is snatch the flower bouquet one lor !
But she is very scary ! Her back is full of tiger tattoos , meaning full back . And her eyes and face are all super fierce . She works in a pub somemore ! I really think she's scary lor ..

At night , we the people washed ourselves up again and have a change of outfit .

I think my mummy is the prettiest ! :D

This is her beautiful hair set up at a nearby hair salon (:

At 7+ , we rushed off to the restaurant because we were lateeee........

People started camwhoring here and there ! Here are my male cousins (:

This is my third auntie eldest son and his girlfriend ! He studies in Catholic High School but he is a Malaysian , tranferred over to Singapore because he aces in basketball . Seeing the height difference between him and his girlfriend we can tell that he is so superrrrrrrrrr tall !

His girlfriend's name is Peggy and she is super lovely and lively (: I like her !

And my other cousins and relatives ! :D I have a whole lot of pictures not posted up .

Blah blah blah and after one or two dishes , the bride and groom are out ! They went on with normal wedding dinner ceremony (:

Pour champange ! Awwww (:

交杯酒！ Yammmmmmmmmsenggg :D

Everyone looks so happy ! :D Eat eat eat like a glutton , then many people go on stage to sing sing song ! And I was so surprised that Peggy is going to sing ! She seemed relaxed and happy to go on stage to sing ! I think she is very brave . She sang 勇气。Haha ! So matched to her bravery . And all the while when she sings , she keep looking at my cousin . Omfg soooooooo sweet right !

Then my two cousins went to sing 最近。Their voices are surprisingly nice too !

Then one of my cousins sang with the bride's friend , 你最珍贵。It's a duet (:
They are not couples ! Then so on and so forth ....... Till an uncle sang on stage . Very very very funny ! When the music plays till the fifth or sixth verse , he is still dragging on the last word of his first verse ........ What do you call it ? 自我陶醉。Haha ! And after the faithful wedding is over , my uncle drove my mother and I back to Singapore (:

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Ok ! First thing , there's only my mother and I because my father went to Germany and my sister has school .

Second ! All these photos created to my cousin and Peggy !

Thirdly , I took no photos with my phone because the result is always like damn blur ! I want Sony Ericsson phone la ):

Fourthly ! Dont have much of my own pictures because I think I look very super weird .

Fifthly ! I enjoyed this wedding and I hope for another gathering with my relatives and cousins soonnnnnnnnnnnn . Genting next , I guess ? :D Christmas !!!!

Sixth , this is a late post because Im lazy and Im starting to play Maplestory again ! Wahaha ! Im NOT playing private server but the original MapleSEA . Im so proud of myself leh ! I want go chiong chiong chiong .

Seventh , Im dead bored at home and I think I will die soon if no one saves me out from here .

Eighth , I need a job . Yayayaya I hate people asking me for job lobangs because I have no lobangggssss .

Next ! October 6 was YKH and my 200 days . Firstly he say dont want celebrate months anniversary celebrate 100th days ! Then he say dont want 100th days because like counting death anniversary ! HAHAHA . Siao si wo . But anyway , this cute toot gave me a Ben & Jerry ice cream . I was smiling the whole day and my mummy tell me , I give you ice cream also never see you so happy before ! Lol lol (: It's different ma . I love YKH .

Speaking of my mum ? Hah , had a quarrel with her just now . I cant believe she's so unreasonable and petty and always-put-the-blame-on-others . If someone say something bad about you you should have the rights to know it's who , no ? She keep refusing to tell me who is it because she say she do not want to betray that someone . Oh what the fuck , get a life . You only have two daughters leh , and you are helping outsiders ? If people criticise your daughter you should stand up for her and not help him/her the outsider keep it a secret ! Please . And when I know the person , I really fucking angry . I just wanna scream it out la ! But I dont want to bring trouble to my mum ... But I just cant take the fact that , she actually care more for that person then me . Yeah .

My father dont understand me a single bit . My sister only care about her online friends . Now my mother is taking the outsider's side . Oh so great .

Though my boyfriend always dont have time for me , but he still care .

But I still feel so lonely ): And this place is no longer a safe place to type down my thoughts ? Eh dont get emomomomo ! ):

I think mapling is still the best cure ever , I love you la maple .

Chiong ar !

Weeeeeee Im going Malaysia tmr for my cousin's wedding ! It lasts for two days . My cousin is a very gothic girl , I wonder if her wedding dress is gothic 0.0

I cant wait to see my cousins ! I cant wait to see my cousin marrying ! I cant wait to see alot of people gathering ! I cant wait to see my close cousins ! I cant wait to doll myself up !

I will miss my darling so much ! My handphone cannot contact people when Im in Malaysia so there's no phone I can use while Im there ....... Oh well . My mum wont let me use her phone and my father is still in Germany . Yawnnnnnn .

I wish I got an owl ! Then I will write letter , just write "I miss you" and draw a heart shape send over ............ Then zoom my owl come back with the reply letter from my darling with "I miss you too !!!" and with heart shapes all over . Teeheehee . So happy . Sms-alike !

I want a white owl :}

Should I go sleep now , should I ? I think I will wait for darling to sleep first before I sleep , if not I think I cant sleep well at all !

But nevertheless , goodnight here to the few people reading my blog and I will be back on Thursday ^^