I've got this weird feeling of wanting to do something so badly but no idea what? These hormones are going wrong again man :(

Stressing over where to go! Not like I have alot of choices but it's last minute I must decide man. Even if I choose a course I like I dont know where I can head to. My points are barely merit. Im sighing bitterly now.

Congratulations to Zubaidah!!! And all my other ex-Riversidians friends for getting great grades for O's. Not like me. *poking index fingers* Eh but I think I very optimistic eh. LOL

Ok some quick pictures from my dear Bali trip before I go to bathe. Just no motivation to bathe man.


1st day at around late afternoon.

Long time since I sat on a plane... Since p4/5? :)
So I was damn very the excited when we were about to check in... Camwhored the moment we were on the way to the airport!








It was fantastic you know when the plane set off and everything the whole of SG become smaller. I still cant believe that SG is only a smalllllll dot lor -.-
Was on Garuda Airlines. I love aeroplane food! ^.^ Even if they might taste horrible lah.
We have to take a bus from the plane to the airport after we reach Bali. The impression of Bali dont appear that fresh to me becuz it looks sort like Malaysia eh (:
The people are damn friendly, even the guy who stamped my passport hehe.










We were actually supposed to be in a tour but becuz 7th-10th was the most un-peak period after school has started so no one signed up :(
The tour guide bring us to a 7-sitter Suzuki car and off we went to Harris Hotel and I had quite a fun time time with myself in the bath tub before I head to bed. LOL






Day 2! First stop at batik factory where they show us the process and everything and we can buy them inside the big batik shopping centre. Super expensive the clothes, like SGD40+ for something I wont usually wear and for a souvenir :(
So I passed and bought a few batik purses!
Went to this wood sculpting place where all the ornaments are hand-made.
Sis bought an owl ( standard one her fav animal ) and dad bought a dragon...







Lunched at this place which is like a 2+ hours ride to the top of the mountain where the scenery is totally breathtaking! If I wasnt in the sleepy mode :/
Lunch was not ok! Ambience was :D Ordered ice lemon tea, tasted different from any I drank before.










Went a few more places. Sacred temple where the path is on the sea and becuz it's raining we can't cross over :(
There's the strawberry farm! Totally organic man the strawberries. Small and fresh and handpicked... By us truly ^^ Love it.
Went to a beach later on... And the along the route to the beach got alotttttttt of stalls sell souvenirs and bags at damn cheap price but it was raining so no much shopping for us :(

My flats spoiled! Bought a new flowery slipper :D (wore it when I met Aiai and TL today :D)

Ohoh and there's a bat hanging outside one of the stalls! I guess it's a pet bat... It has a pearl necklace collar on its neck :D



























Dinner at what looks like a really high class restaurant! Balinese dance was really catchy, I like! Went shopping at SOGO shopping centre. Find nothing while Mum and Sister bought slippers. Everywhere can see people sell branded goods replicas :(

Was kinda in a bad mood before the day ends becuz we walked like a whole 45 minutes back to the hotel when the tour guide told us it's only 10 minutes. M.F.A.H!!!! Zao zhi dao take cab you know. Damn cheap de.







Day 3! Last day of playing :( yet the best day of the 4 :D
Everyone turned up with relaxing beach wear! Woohoo time for some dunking in the water :)








There's not much photos of us playing the water activities.
Sister and I played the Fly Fish or something. We lied down on a rocket look-like thing.
Eh great i found pictures :D




Heh save explaining. LOL
Exciting like siao ok! So scared of falling down and plopping into the water.
Then banana boat with whole family :D




We took a yacht (?) to turtle island! Love the ride and love my hair man (v)
There is this glass on the floor of the boat when we can see thru the water and see the fishes and corals etc :D













So much fun in this place!!! First I wet my shorts by squatting too much while taking photos with the turtles -.-
Then, when I held the turtles, they just cant stop flapping their 'wings' like fidgeting and cant wait to get off my grasp like that. I damn sad lor :( Even the bat also like that. When I damn freaking scared of it you know!!!! Holding a bat......... Never imagine I'll do something like this man. LOL

But when my sister holding them right, they guai guai let her hold leh? I was like what?!?!?! Huo mao san zhang. Maybe my sister got mama smell ^^ Or maybe the animals very excited when I hold them becuz I so pretty. Or becuz my shirt got parrot. Make sense make sense.

Then... Got one bird with big yellow beak called Mariah :D She's a very cute thing I tell you. She's on my arm when I preparing to take a photo with it. Then I look at her, she look back at me. I jitao scared she peck me with the beak then I turn away quickly. Laughs when I think of it man! *think of Mariah*






















I love the guide above ^^
He's so cute and friendly!!!
We have coconut drink before going off to lunch.
Lunch was in a boat, small like cruise.
There was a surprise for us and that is taking photos with the balinese costume! :D Had so much fun with the costumes hehe.













Went to this place that tells us the history of Bali :) Like Night at the Museum like that!

After that... It was the longgggggggg awaited spa man.
Sister and I had the whole body spa!
Jacuzzi, sauna, foot massage and whole body massage. Super song I tell you. Though abit awkward have to take off all my clothes lah ^^
I dont know sauna so hot inside man. When there's water dripping down from my neck I thought they come from my wet hair. Then when I tell this to sis, she tell me I'm sweating. LOL








Coffee factory was next :D
Love the coffee, the plants, the machines and the facts and origin of coffee.
Coffee beans are actually cherries!!!
It can prevent us women from having many kind of diseases and it's good for you even if you drink up to 5-6 cups of coffee.
W-O-W
You know usually when we drink the packets 3in1 coffee? The beans to make this coffee are actually either sort of rotten or something one, but can drink one!!! That one is the lowest class, then the female bean which is half a perfect bean, then the most high class is the male bean which is one whole bean after eating the female bean :D

Eh I actually still remember sia LOL

Maybe I should choose a course in poly similar to this kinda thing one since I can remember interesting things like this so well. Have anot har? I still headaching sia.







Dinner at the beach! Again, I dont know that I'll ever have this chance to dine in such a romantic place with such wonderful scenery and the wind... The salty smell. The night sky!!! Even got fireworks. It's already so enjoying with my family, I wonder how it'll be like with my husband :)

The food is so-so, love the satay and prawns... I ate like 4/5 of the crabs already then mum take a bite of mine............... Then she tell me my crab is spoiled!!! Wahlao I feel like vomitting becuz she say maybe attacked by mosquitoes then die then they cook. Tmd like that how to continue eat right!!!















We went shopping by ourselves at night!!! :D
Bought wine by myself (; Get a few snacks and so~ It started raining again sigh so we cabbed back...
Loving the soso affordable cab fare!
The meter is showing RP9500 which is like less than SGD1! Believe it or not. We sat on the cab like about 1-2km liao leh ^^




Last day! I totally look like Hawaiian LOL
Love the flower on my hair! ^^
We went shopping at those road stalls. Bargain like siao~
They have these branded sunglasses replicas. I from SGD40 bargain until SGD9. Li hai or what?!?!?
I learnt abit of Malay leh...
Berlaper?







Checking out of the hotel :( So sad man. Went for lunch at this chinese restaurant ^^
BEST FOOD WE'VE TASTED FOR THESE 4 DAYS!!! LOL
Took bo liao pictures and everything... Then went to the airport liao.
Everything duty free ^^
But I left no money :(
















Can't stop gasping at how miraculous these clouds look. Totally 100% boomz man.





There's no row no.13 seats! :S




More for you...







That's Singapore, our homeland, it's here that we belong~~~~

Yeap and daddy go buy wine from airport! And then we cabbed home already ^^
More photos at Facebook.
I definitely want to visit Bali Bali again lor! So memorable and so much fun there. Love it love it love it!!!

Next stop............. Korea/Japan :D SAVE MONEY SAVE MONEY!!!




YKH is sick now :(
Aiai also :(

Can't wait to find them + XT + TL + Meixia and Jiayee perhaps? HOPEFULLY.
Meeting Jiaren on Thursday! She's sucha strong girl I must say. Stay like this alright :)

TIME TO BE MOTIVATED.


"Love is knowing all about someone and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you."

I love you K.

Hey there.

Am gonna go to Bali Indonesia tomorrow! Bali! Indonesia! Bali! Indonesia! Bali? Bali!!!!
Am enthu... Can't wait to go on a vacation and leave everything behind for awhile :D
But what if I cant do it? What if my mind's still at SG and I cant enjoy myself :( That will sucks and the fault will only go to one person.................. :)

I believe that I will be dead unhappy when Im back. I know you are thinking, so negative for what? Things havent happen already so disencouraged liaoz... Whatever ok ^^
Everytime I went overseas and after I come back, I will either have pleasant or shocking, surprises you call that? Hate it alot manz. If I could stay overseas for long and have temporary memory loss :( Life is miserable you know!

Meeting Aiai (and hopefully laopo) for lunch and everything before I head off to the airport tomorrow :)

I will miss using facebook and see the updates of my friends very much! Wahlao I miss night life. The last time was... Maybe already one or two years ago. Night life will change one life alotttttttttttttttt :) Trust me! So, run away from home if you felt that home is a terrible place and go out every night. THEN realise how home actually is really the best place ever (heartz) Unless there are disputes between your family members themselves lah...

Ages since I last talk to alot of people... As in face to face, Jiayee, Liting, Jiaen, Melissa and the ex-cdance peeps? Joelle, sy, aaron, kelvin? (well I accidentally met Jiayee a few times, gosh I jitao crack a wide smile and hug her! saw Liting at boat quay on 1st Jan. she didnt see me though) I've become so anti-social lah! Nono cannot like that must change already ^^

Who cares whether this is a wordy post? Who cares whether I've been repeating this i-miss-who-&-who for very long and no actions. Ok lah actually I care :( Just dont know why cant just take the initiative grr!


Praying that my job application will pass *close eyes and pray to ti kong*


KH didnt sleep at all last night. I bought tickets for A&cm2 for us two + Leon&Brandon and he met me for dunch at Pastamania. Yumz! (big fat hearts but spell sinful!)
Love the chipmunks, especially super duper alot my dearest.......... THEODORE!!! Looks just like my little KH huh with a big butt......... *smiles*

I abit cheat people with my FB photos sia LOL.
All edited one becuz the picture lighting + me is ugly without editing ma...







Shall sleep early tonight. Going to grab some cheap bikinis before meeting G & X tmr!!!
Ciaoz.



"Holding on to each other because we're too scared to let go."

Im here......... Because I'm feeling really bored! And I really dont feel like going to sleep.

Now I'm yawning. Contradicting always!

He's out every night now and I'm home playing L4D 2 on Facebook. HAH. It's a pretty stupid game but everyone plays it.

Wednesday Imma celebrate dearest KH's birthday (L)
And going to Bali on Thursday! Woohoo! I'm looking forward but I prays that nothing goes wrong :)

Ciao people.





The best friends are the ones that you don't have to talk to everyday, who understand why you didn't take their advice to not call him or why you keep going back to him again. The ones who call you at 4am to let you know they're drunk, who listen when they've heard the same story a thousand times, the ones who call just to say hi. And whether you're dancing on the table or passed out drunk, they'll turn and say, "Hell yeah, that's my best friend."

New Year Resolutions 2010

1. Life will be better. (same old thing)
2. Achieve something else if my O's fail. (gotta know what happen on 11th-13th)
3. If O's passable, move on to RP.
3. Get an ideal weight of **kg.
4. Be a better friend, girlfriend and daughter.
5. Make 50 new friends. (LOL at myself but I wanna do it! :) )
6. Know how to admit mistakes boldly and apologise.
7. Raise self-esteem, stop wallowing in misery.
8. Get a laptop with my own money.
9. Not be selfish and at the same time take care of my own self.
10. Stop disappointing so many people that are suppose to be my guardian angels and result in them leaving.


Basically all most of them have to do with changing myself and the way I treat people. Material needs seemed important but not so afterall.

I've quitted my job... I feel really guilty but free. You wont know how it feels when at days you feel like sitting on the floor kicking your legs and crying the whole day, YET you have to turn up for work with a smile to face the customers, to not let your colleagues worry about you. I don't know when things will settle down for me becuz it seems like another wave is coming my way. Sensing it and Im gonna do something about it.

I've made a superbly wrong choice. It's all up to me now.

:)

Anyway! Though 2010 doesnt looks like a great year ahead, I had fun for new year countdown :D

Thought that KH and guys are heading down to Esplanade but they are staying in hometown(lawls). So texted Aiai and Laopo to see what they were planning. Went to Marina Square with Aiai in the end and the crowd totally ftw. Pleasant perfume smell, not-so-pleasant frangrance and smell of sweat fill the air. Suffocating but I felt so united with my dearest Singaporeans lol!

Walked at least 2.4km (as stated by Sim) to our destination to meet her friends. Friendly people I say! Dined at Mac 15 minutes before the spectacular scene of fireworks came. The bright light works never once failed to amaze me and made me feel refreshed :)

Thank you Aiai, yet another year counting down with you! Started texting friends and folks but we all know the messages will never be sent at 12am sharp, duh!
I hope that LXT is fine, we love you so okay! xoxo

We headed different directions and I met Kh and guys at boat quay, saw Liting from a distance and said hi to Huilay! Ages man.
Love the night and company of the happy people ^^






515 for breakfast and home.
I slept at freaking 11am! T.T

Random note, I realy hope I can donate fats to those children in Africa :/
I so dont need them okayyy! If I can do that there will be one big problem off my mind :D Sometimes I will still be very angry at who-creates-us-humans for the misery brought into our lifes.

Went to Bugis with Sim, TL and Yap when we woke up!
Funny day it was.








She loves it lol!

Am gonna take a bath and watch Momo Love!!!

Every year at this time... I will feel very sad and reminise and reflect alot :(
Seems like my life didnt get any better, YET it did not get any worse too :)
Everything is practically the same actually. It's just that my way of thinking went a different route. Im altogether a different person now.
Though so, the people I have by my side are still the same. Little, but all I need.

I lost much more people this year. I don't know whether it's a good or bad thing. I just know to believe in fate, believe that everything is arranged for my own good :) I will learn things along my way, even when the worst come I will take it in my stride and change to become a better person.

"You are still learning."- Daddy Ong.

:/

Just browsed through my archive 2008_12, : "My only new year resolution is to make everything better than before !"
I have failed again I guess. But arent we doing the same thing every year? Everyday? All our life, trying to accomplish something?
Even if we failed every year, it is not a failure afterall. Because we are still standing here, learning to do so after falling.

I think it's long since I talked about me and KH in any ways. I always cut them short, to one sentence, or none.
Many things happened between us, I dont know what is it between us now too anyway.
One thing that will definitely make me stay and that is how our love don't sway... :)
I still love hate you my dear!

I know that I have really been a bitch for this year.
To different people, in different ways.

Thank you to the 5, or 6 people that are still, or was once the most important people in my life.
It really made me smile looking at those happy posts, happy pictures, happy conversations etc again :)
Life changes.
I hope that all my loved ones will walk the correct route in life, and be happy in their heart :) If not, let it out! I dont know what I can do to help but I will definitely do my best to :)

It's time to let go of the unhappiness that's occupying this much space in my heart and mind.

:)




Anyway, I'm going off to Bali for 4d3n on the 7th! :D But that means I will be missing out KH's birthday ): Im going to celebrate it well for him before that. I hope that he'll be happy :)

And... On the 14th February I will be off to Malaysia to celebrate CNY too! :( Life sucks man. I rather celebrate Valentines Day in SG than get those angpaos in Malaysia... Do I? :D HAHAHA


Imma upload those photos before it gets late!



















Hope that countdown tomorrow will be successful yeah (; I want a nice, exciting and refreshing one!
So now... I have to shake those hoops, take a bath and pain theeee nails :)
Ciao people! HNY eve :)



Gotta catch these beautiful chipettes on 4th January! Which is next year! HAHAHA