At Greenwich CBTL now. It was peaceful here on a Sunday I came, and it was sooooo peaceful. but today, I hear too many voices even with my earpiece :/

And people rather risk their phone being stolen (Err, by me. Not that I steal, but she's risking) by putting their phone charging at the socket behind where I am sitting at, and she herself is sitting far far away. I mean if you see someone occupying the space with the socket you most probably will ask first (although it's a public thing) right? Grr. I am seriously just disgusted with citizens of my own country.

Another one will be the taxi uncle. I said 'Yio Chu Kang Rd, Greenwich', then he ask, 'Go drink ah?' Come on, where is the link? I said, annoyed, "No? There all restaurants what." He say, "Orh, I thought there always very bright, can drink one." Disgusted.

I mean it's really hard to have a positive outlook, for the people around you, for the strangers. Because most of them are either arrogant or they just think for themselves. Of course, sometimes I wonder whether they have been nice before, just that they experienced not getting a good treatment in return, so they give up hope on people. I hope I can continue to try and be nice to people, and always give a smile.

Did not go school today. Keep telling myself not to feel guilty because I really was not in the state for school, and I will make it up by studying hard for the lesson I miss. But I can't help it, because my parents lectured me, people appear disappointed and the what's nots.

Hate that I have two opposite sides of thoughts. Love that too. You see what I mean?
I love to say that, as a Gemini, this is why I always have two opposite feelings for a certain matter. For example, YY asked me yesterday while we are going back, 'Are you happy with the Halloween Event this year at USS?" I gave two answers, one is I am very happy and satisfied, and the other is that I don't like it. Like because I managed to enter all 3 haunted houses and went on all my favourite rides, it's all worth it, especially with YY and the other ns staff. I say that I don't like it because there was certain unhappiness in between, the waiting and everything which was very tiring, really. And sometimes when we wait, people just do not appreciate.

Maybe I should really be more neutral for things like that. Hate is not good.
NOH8.

"I don't know if you've ever felt like that.  That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years.  Or just not exist.  Or just not be aware that you do exist.  Or something like that.  I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this.  That's why I'm trying not to think.  I just want it all to stop spinning. "

- Perks of Being a Wallflower

Okay, as I tweeted, I am going to blog! It makes me happy to know that people still blog nowadays, feel like got hope like that. Haha.

Currently feeling peaceful now, but hungry! Last meal was chicken rice with Jiaxi, Kokleong, Ellen and another classmate and 12 + like that... Shall eat cup noodles at YY's later! ^^

Lessons are getting tougher as days go by. I am a really serious student when it comes school work. But after last sem, I told myself not to get so tensed at discussions, but at the same time I only want my GPA to rise and not drop. I want my desired GPA, not because I want to enter a university but because... I want to prove to myself that I can do it? Don't feel like missing any more lessons. Quite sick of having to catch up with missed lessons every time. So many pre-readings nowadays, where got time? Now everyday filled with studies worries lor, sigh. Only thing to cheer me up is meeting up with my favourite people and SHOPPING! Shopping can really make me very happy! Hehe.

Suddenly overcome with stress now. Temperamental much. Shall think of the Korea trip in December... KOREA TRIP!!!

Toodles

Life's NOT GOOD today.
Today is Friday.
It's the first day of my Year 2, Semester 2.
I wake up at 8am.
Only get to rest now after going to StarHub.

But it's great I am in the same class as Jiaxi, my comforting partner, and get to meet my Charismatix except WaiTing just now.

Twitter really replaces Blogger nowadays ya? I miss blogging, writing down all my worries while the thoughts are running in my head.

I wonder how long this dead knot in my heart will untie. I am feeling so depressed every single day, so alone. Although everything seems perfect in my life now. I am just too paranoid to everything. I cannot trust, and I cannot bring myself to sympathize people, understand their feelings, stand in their shoes and keep hurtful words to myself.

I am not like that, this is not me.
Everyday I hope to become a better person, but I just do more things disappoint myself, and as days go by I just feel worse and worse.

Back to the school topic, I M REALLY ANGRY WITH EVERYTHING. The timetable -- 8am lesson every Monday and Friday. The most undesirable facilitator will be teaching me again. And lastly, all my classmates for 5 different days are different. Why? BUT WHY?! I miss my united Y2S1 classmates. But again, lucky I still have Jiaxi, and other friends like Charismatix, 7w, L2OP that will stay together and make the efforts to meet up. For that I am really thankful.

On the way back to SengKang to see how my YY is doing, poor man of mine, getting high fever and other shits :/

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