Every year at this time... I will feel very sad and reminise and reflect alot :(
Seems like my life didnt get any better, YET it did not get any worse too :)
Everything is practically the same actually. It's just that my way of thinking went a different route. Im altogether a different person now.
Though so, the people I have by my side are still the same. Little, but all I need.

I lost much more people this year. I don't know whether it's a good or bad thing. I just know to believe in fate, believe that everything is arranged for my own good :) I will learn things along my way, even when the worst come I will take it in my stride and change to become a better person.

"You are still learning."- Daddy Ong.

:/

Just browsed through my archive 2008_12, : "My only new year resolution is to make everything better than before !"
I have failed again I guess. But arent we doing the same thing every year? Everyday? All our life, trying to accomplish something?
Even if we failed every year, it is not a failure afterall. Because we are still standing here, learning to do so after falling.

I think it's long since I talked about me and KH in any ways. I always cut them short, to one sentence, or none.
Many things happened between us, I dont know what is it between us now too anyway.
One thing that will definitely make me stay and that is how our love don't sway... :)
I still love hate you my dear!

I know that I have really been a bitch for this year.
To different people, in different ways.

Thank you to the 5, or 6 people that are still, or was once the most important people in my life.
It really made me smile looking at those happy posts, happy pictures, happy conversations etc again :)
Life changes.
I hope that all my loved ones will walk the correct route in life, and be happy in their heart :) If not, let it out! I dont know what I can do to help but I will definitely do my best to :)

It's time to let go of the unhappiness that's occupying this much space in my heart and mind.

:)




Anyway, I'm going off to Bali for 4d3n on the 7th! :D But that means I will be missing out KH's birthday ): Im going to celebrate it well for him before that. I hope that he'll be happy :)

And... On the 14th February I will be off to Malaysia to celebrate CNY too! :( Life sucks man. I rather celebrate Valentines Day in SG than get those angpaos in Malaysia... Do I? :D HAHAHA


Imma upload those photos before it gets late!



















Hope that countdown tomorrow will be successful yeah (; I want a nice, exciting and refreshing one!
So now... I have to shake those hoops, take a bath and pain theeee nails :)
Ciao people! HNY eve :)



Gotta catch these beautiful chipettes on 4th January! Which is next year! HAHAHA

So much things happened, I couldnt be myself already, no matter what. I've tried really hard to be nice yet be myself, but I just seem like a hypocrite altogether. It suck so much unable to behave like Jiamin.

I dont know how many people in this world actually have this kind of problem but all I know is I'm weird becuz it seem like Im the only one. Everybody else seem perfect to me. Do not tell me everyone has their problems that are really disturbing them and they are staying strong and Im just a fucking weakling and such. Because, I know it myself. Since dont know when, I became very selfish and insensitive to people's thoughts. I am more aware of whether people intentions to hurt me, and how fair or unfair if certain things is done etc etc.

Why do I keep escaping and escaping from people?!?!?!?! Fuck it.
I'm so upset with myself.
I dont really care if people are jumping with joy upon my misery. Im just saying my thoughts out. I really like Facebook application, "God wants you to know..." It's like the greatest fortune telling thing invented becuz every sentence suits me at the moment I read it and it never fail to give me more strength to move on in life.
Im a buddhist k....... Im going to the temple soon.

I really should stop thinking.


Something good I came across.
"74. Guys will always check out other girls, even if we make it less obvious when we're around you, it does not mean we're considering leaving you for the girl on the bus. It just comes to us without thinking, so don't freak out when a guy looks at another girl. It's just nature, and we know you were oggling at the cute guy that just walked passed. And hey, guys can have female friends just like girls can have male friends, just because he gets a text from a girl does not mean he is cheating on you. But if this does make things awkward, talk about it.


Wednesday, I went to HPV with G, TL and his friend! :D
Let the photos speak,





























That's all for now I guess :D
Went to Genting last week! We only went there for about 4-5 hours~ I love the Bak Kut Teh at Klang!!! I love my cousins and relatives!!!


Am sick now with a flu. Hate the itchiness at throat you know? But I dont know why although it's a valid reason that I didnt turn up for work, I still feel so guilty... Sigh counsel me and tell me why!!!

As said before, Xiaxue and boyfriend wedding proposal's video is so worth my tears! Such a strong and funny girl with her own strong stand with loads of people loathing her and admiring herat the same time. I'm one of her supporters! She's someone I hope I could be like. Love her character.


"But somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong. Our love is like a song, you can't forget it."
I dont know how to trust you anymore.

Reading all those blogs just made me feel like blogging! Oh well so here I am I got lots of pictures to post anyway.

Worked at expo last last weekend and earned great buckz and am uber happy lo :D
I have stable income every month although not that much I'm moving forward everyday and learning new things in my job ^^
Went to Vivo City outlet for work I was damn nervous but end up I really like the people there but I will only work there for once which is last Saturday! :)

It was Dad's birthday on the 7th and sister's on the 14th of November! I love my family + Jonas & Nigel so so so so much!














































Looking at those happy pictures really can make me very happy... I'm very very scared to lose any of them. In the past I might reconsider myself if asked to sacrifice for them. But if you ask me again I would do anything just to keep my family safe and sound and happy. I swear.


During those times when I went missing from blogging...
I have fun time with my friends too! :)
Only picture missing is with Lorencia.










But my fun times had come to an end.
No happy, no more.
Saw a quote from FB friend -- Sin once, condemned forever.
True enough and it totally happened to me. I'm gonna be guilty forever and nothing I'm going to do is gonna stop this self-reprimanding. Why stop anyway? I deserve it.

Gonna work my brains and hearts out. People from work are friendly and fun and that's all I need to forget everything :)
I love Lily, Hazel and Lieke!

Looking forward to all the knives and bullets coming my way.