Can't say things are going well, and it's too early to say that things are messed up, but I'm just not in a very relaxed state. Before I wake up properly at 6.20am, I woke up thrice involuntarily at 2+am, 4+am, and at 5.50am wtf. Guess it's a result of all the planning and thoughts runningin my head, thinking of ways to adapt to school since 6pm which was ever since I reached home. Took about 45min nap without feeling rested.
Yesterday started off okay because school was in the afternoon, met some coursemates for lunch and celebrated a birthday (Happy Birthday once again Jinyu!). Reached school just in time for the lecture and because I did not turn up for Day Zero due to going Krabi with the family (no regrets), I've lagged behind in knowing the locations of lectures/tutorials/labs.
Well, one of the first things we heard in the lecture was "This is the start of your very tough and difficult journey." So motivating. 2nd thing we've heard might be, "You're currently in a module that you should have exempted but didn't." It pissed me off somehow because we were told that if there was more than certain percentage of the modules' description that we find unfamiliar/did not learn before, we should take that module. And now suddenly we're accused of being 'scared' and being mocked at in some ways because we'll be learning the same stuffs in other modules. And what's more with the emphasis of 'all of us' having been in an IT-related diploma and we should know this, we should know that, when not ALL of us were in an IT-related dip, and even if we were, the amount of IT knowledge we were given varies.
We registered a module to learn stuffs we know we do not know and why is it that we should know the stuffs which of course are chicken feet for you?
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This angst has been accumulated with unpleasant experiences regarding admin, module selection and Welcome Ceremony matters. So a first day like that definitely leave me not pleased at all. Truth to be told, I'm really quite worrier about myself.
Hope things will get better which I believe it will smooth out in time to come. Told boy I'll work hard for 21 days and it will become a habit (somewhere/someone said 21 days of doing anything will make it a habit) and things will get easier in weeks and months.
Gonna get through today, have a rest and have some normal relaxed life with Shermy before I go to work, which I believe I'll find more comfort from lol. Tomorrow's another long day though. Glad to have taken only 4 modules this trimester to get use to all these hectic changes in my life.
Morning rants lol btw LIFE WAS GOOD AT KRABI LAST WEEK WITH MY LOVED ONES hehe bye gonna meet the course mates
