Awesome. Leaving me so many shits to uncover. Now when I want to be angry and rage at you because of all these discovery, I can't. I can't retaliate to that no matter how it really upsets me because you wouldn't be happy, them too, and it will lead to much more unhappiness for myself. Then again, why did you left in the first place? I can't feel angry, just because you will not like it and it is so unfair because why does it mean that when you're gone we'll have to think of how you feel because you're the one that leave us hanging and it's us that are unable to do anything.
Im really unhappy and angry but at the end of the day I can only keep mum and be sad. I know it's ridiculous but I hope that in someone or another you'll see this. It's the best that you settle this yourself.
I thought it will be a whole new life since that day and this will just slowly fade away while I live my life, but no. Too naive of me. Slept and woke up thinking of the same thing. Im just glad that Im still standing like how I am and I did not stop moving. Im still sober and sane.
I hate you, so, so much. For what you did to me before you left, and even more for what you have in stall for me after you irresponsibly left silently.
