18072013

I push people away. A lot of people do. But I don't push people in the way of keeping silent, smile, and walk away. What I do is avoid at all cost possible, having this attitude tone when talking to people and just claim that I want to be alone. It's like, I can't even 'surface' act anymore, just saying and acting what I deem fit.

But this is not permanent, pushing people away. I hope this will stop soon, because I enjoy having fun with people and randomly go to places to eat, to chill, to talk. Recently I just need a lot of time with myself. I find myself being most comfortable by being with myself, my family, my dogs, my boyfriend, or just a few good friends.

Honestly, after working at this company for almost 4 months now, I really like how I can be alone at most times and love how the office is quiet. I use to find the silence too deafening, but it's really comfortable now. I only need to talk when asking and talking to my supervisor about the tasks that I've done/did/or have to do. It's either it the type of surrounding I work comfortably in, or I just adapted to it because I have been here for a while. I think it's the latter.

Taking half day off tomorrow, so glad. This means that at this moment, I have exactly 11 days left.

Although I can't wait, I hope that I will have things to do to occupy my time during the 2 months plus holidays. I can't stand doing nothing, I will be bored to death or emotional to death (as a result of too much thinking, negative thoughts filling the mind).

Currently in a calm and very reflecting mood. Just hope that PMS won't visit me anytime this week, like how it did yesterday, where I just raged :/ It's horrible.

Really thankful for people who treat me so well and as one of their priorities x

11072013

Hanging on, it's Friday tomorrow and just 3 weeks more to holidays!

Seriously cannot wait. I mean work is fine and everything, I've gotten used to waking up early, withstanding the long hours of sitting at the desk. But holidays will always be something to look forward to right?

Anyway... Caught by my boss yesterday for shopping online, and he goes like, "Hor, bei wo zuo dao ni mai yi fu hor!" Which means, "Hor, buying clothes, caught by me hor!" Hahaha. Dieeee. But I'm seriously someone who can't just sit here for like 4 hours straight looking at the same thing. I need a break! I mean, look at me blogging now. Of course I know that in this working society, it is like that. Well, well.

20 minutes to finishing work!!! Cannot wait. Nothing is going on in my life except work so this post will be all about work work work. Hahaha toodooooos

08072013

I think that blogging is actually healthy, it helps me to think properly and more calmly? Anyway, I seriously think this infamous thing called PMS really can mess up one's life. I really find myself becoming two different person when having and without PMS. When I thought that it already cannot be worse with me being a Gemini?! But I really like being a Gemini, although it gives me two characters and make me appear as some two-faced someone lol.

I really believe in horoscope, because most of the facts are really just true, not just for Gemini. One thing about Gemini that is not true for me, is being the most sociable and humorous horoscope, which is the least true for me. Yes that may be a 'shortcoming' for me in some way but I don't treat it as too important a factor in my life. Of course I will wish to be like super sociable if possible lah.


Boss is not in today! Hahaha. Finally completed all my tasks last week... But boss has handed me another one, and seriously I haven't even find the codes responsible for the parts that I'm supposed to change/improve on. I'm so dead. There are 4 more weeks left including this week... WHICH IS SUPER GOOD THING. I don't exactly dislike my internship, but I suppose I will rather do without it. I am a person who likes sleep quite a lot so no internship actually means more hours of sleep. Hah!

Just booked my first practical lesson yesterday. Like FINALLY. Didn't know that just ONE lesson can be so super expensive. God. And at least 20 lessons is required before the test. For school o.o'
Didn't take private because I don't think I'm ready enough for private lessons, if you know what I mean, because private is supposedly, normally, for people who can try the driving at home and people who know driving more? I don't know man...

I've been purchasing items from Taobao recently and is quite a happymermaid93... But yesterday, an Instagrammer from... LA? Commented that one of the design for the phone case that I have bought for my Xperia Z is actually copied from her designs and, damn, her designs are really amazing. There is this cheshire cat, fleur-de-lis, Johnny Depp and most importantly, mermaid -- all of my favorite characters, logos, etc. I hope that somehow she will be able to claim her copyrights(?) but I think it might be hard because, well, it's in China... Hard to say huh? But one more time, I REALLY LOVE HER DESIGNS.

Talking about Xperia Z, bought it because I lost my phone (duh). My dearest iPhone 5. It will always be my favorite phone and I think that I will buy it again one day, but not any sooner because there is no big reason to just disown this new Sony phone. Xperia Z is sleek and all, but I get really irritated by the interface and the Google-voice input thing which after I disable for like a day or two, it comes back again. Yes, went to settings but no use lah ok... But a phone is a phone, I'm glad to have one anyway, just grateful. #firstworldproblems hahaha

Nothing productive this morning, except engaging bgr (lol) tweets convo with Joyce and Agnes, then this Pokemon convo with Lorraine and Davina. Super nonsense, but definitely make my day much better and time passed really fast... And also, WA with my favouritest faci ever, Ben! Hehe I just miss the Marketing lesson, the classmates, and this facilitator lah...

It's gonna be a busy, tiring, but fun-filled week meeting my babies! Hehe, on another good note, meeting le bro Lee Leong Leong later. Life is good, life is good. No Monday blues, thank god x

Ok just some pictures cuz I realise it has been all words for quite long. Sampat pics for you

Dear addition to our family --Rainbow x

Love how she sleeps 

Mummy's daughter

Popo and her granddaughters hahaha