I swear I'm so fucking stressed up now I can break down and cry if someone is to shout at me now.
I had a hard day at work ytd night and yeah becuz I lack sleep and I was careless but I already try to be alerted and Im so disappointed with myself why something like that happen I didnt want it to and I feel so useless and I swear I will fucking cry if I were to be fired one day.
God bless me that I dont make anymore mistakes.
I know I should be sleeping by now having to wake up at 6am later on for another job. But I dont know why I always get so depressed when I'm at home so I chose to linger outside for awhile before coming home. After bathing and Im stuck onto this chair and roaming around the cyber world.
I get so fucked up by myself most of the times. I can prevent so many things to happen by myself but I close one eye on myself everytime and think, it's okay one lah nevermind one lah and do it.
Like? Spending loads of ten bucks for cab fare, dragging my time for work and then there's no time to take public cheap transport. I forget things damn easily, like forgetting to bring my ex-link card and spending $6 to go to interchange when I can get there with 69cents only. I have no notes nor coins and the ATM is far away. I always cover the ATM when it shows how much money is left in my bank becuz I dont dare to know how much I have left in my account. Pathetic much? Yeah me think so too.

I've become so pessimistic and lack of confidence. When I have confidence, something always dampen my spirits and pull me down. I have high hopes and fall easily. I'm not a strong person. I always think twice about everything, appropriate anot. I know thinking before speaking is a must but I do that too much or I did it wrongly. Or sometimes I dont think when I speak and I just blurt out something damn wrong.

:(

I really dont like myself seriously. I dont love myself who will right? But I seriously dont know what to do already. I dont do things that are right becuz I dont like it.

I really envy people who can be themselves all the time becuz I can't. I'm so aware of myself.

This dont make me feel any better. I dont know what to do with my life.

"Perfection, something I try to acheive yet always fall short of."

I'm sucha irregular blogger. OK IM GUILTY!
But good thing is there's food for your eyes and it's quite a sumptuous one :D

Life settle down recently. I aint a good stress handler. Well, I cant even handle it, I just escape it.
Has been working and staying out late at night and everything, I see my family lesser and lesser.

Im sorry :(

If this year I could earn a 10k and pass my O's with flying colours, then this shall be my happiest year ever :D


This is my first ever clubbing event! WOOHOO!
I'm a damn suaku lah but who dont have a first time you tell me?!
I find out that my hair turns out beautiful and natural when I dont pay attention to it. HAHA
Went to batok with TL to find his auntie and cute cute nieces then after that we wasted time waiting for bus and took a million years waiting for the taxi and who knows what the taxi uncle's brain is made of and jammed us at Woodlands Checkpoint when we're heading to MCC?!
Singsangsung and off to meet JC and Yuxuan and there goes the night :)
Wasnt as high but I enjoy it!










One of those days Lewis had a birthday BBQ. Poor birthday boy! Had fun with them and Yilin & I ended up running away and cabbing home to avoid cake smash. HAHA








Great photography skills hor aiai.


I love this picture becuz they look like mummy and daughter!!!



Current favourite: Milk Green Tea! :)
Caught How To Train A Dragon 3D with KH and guys on one the days and ate Ajisen at SSC on the other day.






Worked midnight for Daiso stocktaking ytd, met XT and G before that!

Here is XT's ai xin for me :)
Love it to bits and pieces! Bite it to bits and pieces to HAHA






"I hate to say but when i experience break up, my mind is not in peace and i tend to think of suicide only that i'm too timid to kill myself and land up in an ugly death. I guess that means i have to continue living and suffer through the days alone."

Quoted from Enfer's blog. Can't help but agree. Smile man you this crazy woman!

Ending with love from me! :)

YOYOSUP.

Days had been rather wavy, meaning alot ups and downs. Think there's a tsunami arriving!!! WOOOOO.

Has been loving my biology lessons so far. I'm loving it! SST told me that it will drive me crazy further on later. Well I dont care! I hate chemistry!
Retaking humans too ^^










I love blue chemicals! And for that idiot, this one for you one!>>>










SimG taught us how to fold tissue roses :D
It's long since I ton-ed with tl and g so I love the sensation! Hugs.

Going off to look for them soon!

I LOVE MY SISTER! BLOOD SISTER! BLOODDDDDD.

I guess I have to practise daily blogging :(
Because I have so many photos accumulated that I even forget when are the photos taken! I have really simple days that make me elated nowadays. WOOHOO!
With G.Sim, L.Xinting, Yilin and Tanleelee most of the time though lxt is lesser ( :( ) but I'm really just satisfied with these siaolangs by my side!

Good news, I found myself again :)


This day we went to see Tl and guys play basketball and then Aiai and I imitate someone do something and we realise we are bad and still do it now. The green thing is what I get from Kinder Joy! Accompanied her to fetch her cousin Felis and she went to eat Swensens :(





Oh then this is the tmd tiring day! We went to catch longkang fish, squat, stand up, run, then squat run until leg pain and scarred! We all kana-ed! And I got to know Shiying who is uber sweet like Yilin :D Dont know how me this rowdy girl will get to know them worzx.

Sim.G kept all the fishes we caught which is like 100+ I guess :D

Ate pasta and watched Alice in Wonderland 3D!!! It's my virgin experience for 3D movies :D Macdonalds at 768 and slacking for supper and strolled home. I'm having regular exercises nowadays every night when I had to walk home! Is that a good thing or not o.o

This day is full of laughters I like! :D








This one is more recent think is 2 days ago? :D
Fetched XT and G.Sim from school, slacked abit and changed my original plan of going for interview to eating Pastamania and Swensens with them. LOL
Long since we 3 last hung out together, I miss us (Y) !
Picnic soon eh Xinting when it's not that sunny anymore? :)









After that laopo went home, Aiai and I went to look for Nengtong and Edwin :D (!!!!!!!)
Damn happy upon seeing them, didnt really mature but I think grown up abit only lo hor Edwin.
Lol!!!! Oh then there's Nengtong and Joey's baby, Fino :D






Ate at Aiai's house after that, her family is warmly hilarious! Bought spicy spiral potato from pasar malam :D LOVE IT SO VERY MUCH.
Went to find Tl to see them mahjong and midnight stroll again ^^





Ytdytd, went to interview like finally. Hopefully successful! :)
Just walked like one round at Daiso and I've gotten my basket with 8 items. Was quite sad and asked G to get more so that the amount we spent more balanced...





Macdonalds and study session after that! Happy that I can study and get those shit into my brain that day :D






Facebook is really irritating the ass out of me! I attempted to upload those photos for 3 times each taking half hour but all FAILED.

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:(

>:'(

LOL! Eh my chatting khakis all go clubbing tonight. No one talk to liao lor.
I miss Xinting and Yilin again! Wanna see them soon again!
K SESSION ON SATURDAY AGAIN YAY

Kind souls fetch me from DG tomorrow from school please.
:(

Love surrounding me everyday -- G, X, Tl, Yilin :)


"When I'm with you all my fears disappear. So, I guess if you're wondering what my biggest fear is, it would be losing you."