I don't feel like doing this anymore. It's just of no use. I'm just trying to cheer myself up and create some presence in this space of loneliness.
Everything I'm doing now is bad for myself and for no one's good? I'm feeling upset.
Is there really a way out of this situation? When I had felt so hopeless and helpless for months and having sleepless nights? Drowning out my thoughts every night to stop myself for being too paranoid. Doing maximum things to stop myself for being so sensitive. To decrease the quarrel rates.
But I failed, I failed badly :(
I'm not able to tolerate everything a true and good mate should. Everything just too much to bear.
I had enough, I'm really drained, I've tried everything that doesnt work. I don't know what to do anymore.
This is not running away from the problem. It's giving each other space. Since the initial point was to decrease the distance between each other. In the midst of it we all forget what it is all about. We started crashing. Really hard. It's time to clear the mess and return to what we were initially -- which is nothing at all.

Here's a photo to brief on what happen.



I'M FINALLY LIFEMORE! Not lifeless anymore :D
Having so much fun almost everyday.

Mum gave me this blue wine that's suppose to make me healthy blah blah and I thought is Yomeishu this herbal wine that's yummy then end up it's really STRONG and I gulped it down just like that! Throat starts burning my whole face was hot and I'm really tired now :(
Might be physically becuz of playing for the whole day though but I'm suspecting strongly that it's the wine!!!!!

Overnight at Kh's and danggggggggggg he didnt play with me becuz he's a very dead pig when he sleep :(
Today wake up go gai gai with the usual crazy women.

Lazy to elaborate now becuz I'm really tired! Ciaoz people (\/)

The most enjoyable CNY lands on 2010! :D
Though I was like emotional shit on some of the nights, I know that everything will be fine becuz of my family and cousins.

Before CNY I has been hanging out with G, TL & 丫头/舌头 \^.^/
We had our reunion dinner, and the next day before I set off to Malaysia we had a singing session again and believe me, I will never get sick of singing using a mic!











I love candid pictures like this!









This year at my ahma house, other then getting closer with my cousins, I become friendfriend terms with my aunties and uncles also!!! Which is damn rare becuz normally is like we see them then never talk becuz scared, shy, respect or whatever one.

You'll see lots of my naked face in this post. Boohoo! I look hideous without make up, but that's who I am isnt it :D

We had our usual tradition of reunion table with 4 big tables each table with 10+ people on CNY eve, BBQ on lunar 2th Jan, and lao yu sheng on the last day :D

We had a crazy family party on the BBQ night which is the best night ever with everyone dancing together with the uncles leading everyone. Everyone is so hyper when it comes to Sorry Sorry LOL










I don't know how to describe this very happy occasion so maybe a picture can tell you? :)



I LOVE MY FAMILY, RELATIVES MY FRIENDS AND MY BOYFRIEND! HUAT AH!

Hey hi ho~

So many things happened!
Firstly and the greatest thing ever I quitted the most ridiculous job in the world that cheated so many youngsters like yours truely (v)
Seriously you'll lose all your customers like this if you continue selling them at such price. And stop complaining that you don't earn much if you earn almost 50-60 bucks just selling one piece.

Miss my girls, Aina, Zhengning, Zida!

I forgot what happen already. Oh I applied for Higher Nitec. Just sort of pray that it will succeed lah. Privates studies will only waste my and daddy's money... I'm damn broke now. I'm not from a rich family you know?

Okay I love the past two days although I have some hormones disorder and all my mood swings come (Y)

I probably look like chao ahlian in all the photos! I dyed the wrong hair colour sighsighsigh.

First day, AMK hub & pool at OCC with G, TL & Yilin :)
Second day, Bugis to pray with TL & Yilin, neoprints and K session with G, X, TL, Yilin, Aolin, Cindy at night :D
Fruitful days!


































Off to tuan yuan fan with my darlings! Ciao people.